Our Journey with Conjoined Twins
Abby & Erin
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
We know that all things work together for good to those who love God… --Romans 8:28
It is only a faithful person who truly believes that God sovereignly controls his circumstances. We take our circumstances for granted, saying God is in control, but not really believing it. We act as if the things that happen were completely controlled by people. To be faithful in every circumstance means that we have only one loyalty, or object of our faith— the Lord Jesus Christ. God may cause our circumstances to suddenly fall apart, which may bring the realization of our unfaithfulness to Him for not recognizing that He had ordained the situation. We never saw what He was trying to accomplish, and that exact event will never be repeated in our life. This is where the test of our faithfulness comes. If we will just learn to worship God even during the difficult circumstances, He will change them for the better very quickly if He so chooses.
-Oswald Chambers "my utmost for his highest"
Riley and I have been going through it recently. Life just keeps dealing us crappy hands and it has been incredibly overwhelming. Realizing how behind we have become on some bills and how we are both having a harder and harder time dealing with things is just difficult. Our lives are all about the girls, and we are neglecting things (not purposefully) that can't be neglected. And so tonight, as I was basically falling apart because of the stress, Riley pulled out My Utmost For His Highest, and faithfulness was the topic of the devotion. And to say I teared up would be an understatement. It was like a huge light bulb turned on and God went "Hello Heather, I'm still here!"
For those of you who don't know me, I've grown up in church and went to Valley Forge Christian College and received my degree in Youth ministry. I don't consider myself "religious", but rather consider myself to have a personal relationship with Jesus. He knows everything about me, my strengths, weaknesses, likes, dislikes, the desires of my heart, and every hair on my head (or on the floor for that matter, post pardum hair loss is CRAZY, sorry rabbit trail). And every once in a while he needs to basically hit me over the head to make me realize I have forgotten to trust him.
There have been many moments along this journey with our girls that Riley and I have sat and said to each other we don't know how we are going to make it through, and then before we know it God proves himself to us over and over agian. Showing us how much He cares for us and sees our struggles. So here we are again in that position thinking how are we going to get through this and where do we go from here. But then we read a devotion and I remember He has taken care of us several times before, what makes this time any different. Just because it isn't easy doesn't mean He isn't taking care of us.
Matthew 6:24-26 says
“No one can serve two masters. For you will hate one and love the other; you will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and be enslaved to money. “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?
Oh how I need to take that one to heart. God is in control. He has this all figured out. He knows how things are going to go with Abby and Erin. He knows how hard it is for Riley and I to be apart. He knows we can't afford rent and car payments. He knows, and He will provide because he loves us. He promied he would never leave nor forsake. And when He makes a promise He keeps it.
Through the amazing lyrics of Steven Curtis Chapman, Jesus says....
I watch you looking out across the raging water
So sure your only hope lies on the other side
You hear the enemy that's closing in around you
And I know that you don't have the strength to fight
But do you have the faith to stand
And believe me now, believe me here
Remember all the times I've told you loud and clear
I am with you and I am for you
So believe me now, believe me now
I am the one who waved my hand and split the ocean
I am the one who spoke the words and raised the dead
I've loved you long before I set the world in motion
I know all the fears you're feeling now
But do you remember who I am?
I am the God who never wastes a single hurt that you endure
My words are true and all my promises are sure
So believe me now
Be encouraged as I write to encourage myself. Thank you all for reading my thoughts and emotions. This blog has helped me in so many ways and your encouraging comments blow me away more often than not. RIley and I are very blessed to have each one of you following our families journey.
My name is Heather Delaney. I married the love of my life Riley on 10/02/15 and we now have two beautiful girls Abby & Erin, who are conjoined twins, that were born 07/24/16. We are trusting that God is going to work all this out for his good!